Choose 'n decide

salsabeela dah cecah 4 bulan..dan berat dia dah cecah 7.4 kilo pun! fully breastfeed, aku berkeras nak menyokong Polisi Penyusuan Susu Ibu Malaysia; menyusu badan sahaja sehingga umur 6 bulan dan teruskan sehingga ke umur 2 tahun.

ummu aiman inform me that one of her friend manage to exclusively breastfeed her baby up to 2 years old.itu bermakna tidak ada susu formula dlm masa 2 tahun!

we parents always wanted the best for our babies.to make decision along through it is really hard to do,dgn mengambil kira ancaman dr luar dan kelemahan dlm diri parents itu sendiri. even my wife herself is my internal threat in this matters and no matter what, the keyword is to educate and be patience.

in general, to decide the best for our loved one or even for ourself is the matter of how much we could resist to hardship and how much we really want it. same goes in working environment.

we live with choices in our own hand. pray for the best, think, plan and just do it.

Hilang atau Lupa?

ngeri nak berdepan dgn masyarakat hari ini. masyarakat malaysia mmg susah nak celik sivik, etiket, tatasusila, nilai peribadi, courtesy atau apa2 sahaja yang seumpamanya. betul agaknya teori sesetgh tu bhw semakin maju masyarakat itu,semakin pudar nilai dan etika mereka.

its has makes me ponder like this.. ppl nowadays are become individualistic. those things becomes forgotten sama ada dalam aliran pendidikan formal atau non-formal. (ataupun mmg target 2020 nanti kesemua benda ni akan hilang and become irrelevant?) i wonder what will happen during the time of our children? what will they become? how they will behave? then, Cabaran Ke-4 Wawasan 2020 mmg merupakan satu cabaran buat kita!

ntah kenapa aku percaya bhw gaya hidup moden yg keterlaluan tlh membunuh adat budaya, nilai dan etika org kita. sifat kejiranan pun ntah ke mana, anak2 dibiarkan kurang ajar, nilai kekeluargaan dah makin hilang dsb.

mana tak hilangnya adab dan tatasusila kalau family relationship tak diperkukuh dr awal lg, sudahnya kemudian asyik bergaduh dan dengki sesama saudara. ayah anak jrg bercakap, ibu tak kisah anak berkwn dgn siapa, anak dibelai dimanja dan disogok pula dgn kemewahan. semua hajatnya diberi.

nilai budaya, ethics and good values are become less and less important. keutamaan perancangan seorang suami isteri @ ibu bapa adalah lebih kepada mcmana nak pakai kereta bsr lps ni, nak beli MPV, nak beli rmh 2 tgkt kat Bukit Antarabangsa, kat Damansara, Shah Alam, nak beli aset, beli saham atau buat bisnes nak tmbh duit poket atau plan mcmna nak bagi anak2 ni jadi bijak pandai & dpt masuk U. pendidikan hati dan pengisian jiwa? tarak. jiwa kosong, penyakit hati pulak bertambah kronik.

mudah je nak tgk nilai peribadi sendiri ni. just look at ourself (aku pun sama ni) atas jln raya while driving esp in KL. do your calculation yourself. while driving tu lah perasaan marah, rasa nak debik orang, "lantak-ko" attitude, semua ada. ethics and values are not that important when the only things that we care is just ourselves. utk aku juga, tepuk dada tnya selera.

patutnya bukan di jalan raya shj, tp ada lapangan yang lebih luas lagi daripada tu. "lapangan kehidupan" of course.

btl, wlw kita xsehebat mana pun, berkereta buruk, bergaji kecik atau berpgkat rendah akan ttp org nmpk hebat jgk kalau tahu hormat makhluk lain atas bumi ni dan ada sifat empati. hatta kalau kita satu hari nanti berkeretakan Lexus atau Aston Martin, berbonus cecah 8 bulan gaji dan berpangkat tahap manager sekalipun, bknlah susah sgt pun benda tu. bknlah nak cari nama, tp cari ketenangan dan berkat dlm hidup... atau mgkin ada yg lbh pntg drpd itu dlm hidup kita?

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erm, basically aku ni kalau concern dgn satu2 perkara tu, aku suka pikir terlebih2... so this is exactly what i've been drafting a few weeks ago. tu lah, tengok satu perkara tu serius sangat. just my 2 cents ;)

Tukar

Tidak ada yang lebih menggembirakan aku bila dapat tahu isteri aku; Ida dpt bertukar ke putrajaya. syukur alhamdulillah penantian aku tak lama mana; cuma setahun. syukur sbb ada org lain yang lebih lama dari itu.

so aku akan merindui pemandu bas ekspres Metro ke Bandar Pusat Jengka tu, terkenang2 the moment aku suruh yasser punch out kan punch card aku sambil terkocoh2 keluar ofis hari jumaat petang, the moment kejar bas dengan kereta sbb bas tanak berhenti, perasaan takut tiket bas habis, and sempat jugak la berebut2 kat kaunter tiket Bas Metro kat Pekeliling tu time raya baru ni. it will always makes me smile bila teringat all those not-so-sweet moments. hoho

terima kasih jugak kpd arwah Cik Ajai yang byk tolong. semoga roh Cik Ajai ditempatkan bersama org2 yang soleh.

mungkin jugak rezeki anak nih...

Fear it

i miss my family; my wife n the little princess... suddenly that feeling struck into me while i was on duty for 2 weeks helping my other clique in organizing PTK. thanks to technology, picture of salsabeela in my phone help me to fill that empty feeling.

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i manage to see that human capabilities can go beyond further if they want to. during a period where time is so limited as well as resources, and the pressure is so strong, we tend to push ourself for reaching the best in us. for sure there are conditions which are; good mind and effort as well as know our greatest fear.

in this experience, i found out that our greatest fear is OURSELF. at first, it's hard to believe the fact but i manage to realized it from one of my dear friend. fear were there as things we do not used to confront with is occurring or we ourself have to go through that hard time. that unusual climate may make us uncomfortable and people with wrong attitude may give millions of excuses. later, body will start to feel uneasy and their mind will tell them they cannot go through it. i believe that only with strong will, high confident and countless effort could help.. along with doa and tawakkal. in fact, these winning behavior are relevant in many more situation.

peace of mind is rather impossible and hard to achieve inline with less occurrence of the situation. me myself knew that my brain works better during that state of mind. even better, nobody could get it if u knew u are not well prepared!

in short, we all could barely do everything we intended to do. just say it in your mind. it's mind power. (hmm... i wonder when could i finish reading the books regarding mind power which i bought last year from INTAN)

i may writing this because i've seen ppl sat for PTK course during this 2 weeks or maybe simply because i have to sit for my PTK exam next week. haha!

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PTK is here to stay despite CUEPECS petition to abolish it. it may be unfair according to certain group, but it is the best system so far. live with it.

the application slip

365 Days

kami suami isteri menyambut ulang tahun pertama perkahwinan pada 20 oktober baru2 ni. pejam celik dah seminggu, kemudian sebulan dan sekarang setahun dah pun. tak ada celebration apa2 pun, cuma wishing each other sahaja on that day, masing2 tahu sibuk dgn persiapan wedding for my sister.

pengalaman berkeluarga jarak jauh ni telah banyak mengajar kami erti rindu, pengorbanan dan nikmat bertemu muka. tambah bererti lagi dengan kehadiran insan yang ditunggu2, salsabeela.

setahun usia ini bukanlah mahu dibanggakan, tetapi mahu dijadikan sebagai pengukur kepada kami betapa perlunya kami matang dengan cepat dalam meredah hari2 mendatang. apa yang akan berlaku seterusnya mungkin memerlukan kematangan tersebut terutama sekali dalam menempuh dugaan yang tidak dijangka.

seterusnya selepas ini pastinya akan lebih banyak yang perlu dibuat. proper planning is what we hope to do especially on money. almaklum, suami isteri bekerja kerajaan ni bukanlah boleh bermewah2 sangat. sekadarnya sahaja.

tahun depan is going to be a lot more interesting in so many ways. carrier, life, family etc2. we seek forward for the best bagi kami bertiga sekeluarga.

365 days and still counting...

Salsabeela

I'd prefer naming babies with name like Fatimatuzzahraa', Ainul Mardhiah, Mariatul Qibtiah, Jannatul Firdaus etc2. Those were names of somebody in history or something stated in the religion. To be true, it was never cross into my mind that Salsabeela would be the name for my first ever baby.

My only hope is that Salsabeela dapat berbakti dan berjasa kepada Tuhan dan alam sekelilingnya dan hadirnya memberi manfaat kepada orang lain... seperti sama indah dan sama manfaatnya sebagai mata air dalam syurga yang tidak pernah kering dan being the only sources of water kepada pada warga syurga. Mengalirnya harum semerbak, mengalirnya memberi manfaat dan kebaikan kepada si peminum. Mata air salsabeela.

I was watching Nightline telling Anwar Ibrahim had won the by-election on 26.08.2008 while waiting for Ide outside the OT at Hospital Temerloh. That was the night I waited so long. My hand was shaking as my voice during performing the azan & iqamah to Salsabeela's ears. She was so cute in that baby tray!

I can remember well the feeling I felt when I walked down the aisle to Labour Room and then the despair during walking out from it when I was informed that Caesarian is the only option I got to get Salsabeela 'out'... the feeling while waiting outside the OT, and the feeling when looking at Salsabeela at the very first time. It was a miracle!

Thanks to those who text me wishing the best for all 3 of us. Picture of my 'along' can be seen at my Friendster profile.

Congrats to Papa Azim too! Ana Khaireen Nuha. Nice name really.

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My new wallpaper!

Rabitah Hati & Along Inside

Hoho... I was bumped into my skoolmate's friendster blog (SyiqinSyah si katak hijau) when I found this nasyid song. I can't explain how nostalgic this song is to us. Terbayang riak muka Ustat Kashfi yang selalu lagukan nasyid ni kat surau sekolah dulu. Beriya dia menghayati lagu ni. Yepp, tak dinafikan ini antara lagu penyejuk hati.

This is a doa (doa ikatan hati), taken from al-Ma'thurat (a compilation of doa by Hassan al-Banna). Aku kongsikan di sini lirik lagu tu, untuk tatapan bersama.


RABITAH HATI

Hati ini telah bersatu
Berkumpul di perut bumiMu
Hati ini telah berpadu
Bersatu memikul beban dakwahMu

Hati ini telah mengikat setia
Untuk mendaulat
Untuk Mendokong syariatMu di alam maya
Maka ya Allah.. eratkanlah ikatan yang ada (2x)

Kekalkan kemesraan yang ada
Tunjukkanlah jalan yang benar
Tunjukkanlah dengan cahayaMu
Tiada malap terangi alamMu

Hidup suburkanlah dengan ma’rifatMu
Tapi jika ingin mematikannya
Matikanlah sebagai syuhada’
Dalam perjuangan menegakkan agama yang mulia..(2x)

This post might raise some readers eyebrows for what ever the reason is. Well, sharing is caring.

*al-Ma'thurat = Semoga dapat membentuk jiwa yang tenang, dilapangkan rezeki dan terhindar dari gangguan jin atau syaitan. (sesuai dengan kandungan doa)


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Date 20.08.2008 dah lepas tapi 'along' still tanak keluar lagi. *Sigh*. Hopefully I can be there by the time Ida needs me a lot. We realized that we almost never had her captured in any pictures portraying her belly. It's has 'along' inside!

Ida & aku time buat servis Myvi kat Temerloh. Ida during her 7th month of pregnancy

That stories again?

I tends to be so quiet when my "service clique" having a teh tarik session and telling all the stories from their offices. One is telling about their nasty bosses, another is telling that their jobs are sucks or whether how their officemate is just so sickening them to death. It's passed office hour already and all we had is just work matter stories?

I'm so impressed by some of my clique who takes office politics so serious till it makes that person having all the messes with all the people around him (might be he's the one who is already and seriously messed out). Every single action seems so wrong, nothing to be right for him. And all he does when he posted something in our Google Group is just his disappointment with his bosses and the ppl around him.

There's also another type who love so much telling every single thing regarding their job. How good they are, how they do this and that, how their office are doing currently and even what are the things they've been doing in the office today. That kind of stories make u just sit and hear until the stories end (if got lucky enough, the stories will continue till you need for another cup of the tarik).

Maybe I’m the one who cannot resist such stories all the time, but sometime to follow the flow of the stories it might be fun and amusing (it makes me remembered how great Heikal KKR and Padel KTAK in turning an unwanted stories like this into something funny and makes me laugh to death). Good strategies then.

Maybe I’m not that kind of person, that’s why I’m writing this and maybe stories from office is just so sickening me. Or maybe I’m the one who just so sickening to some other ppl by writing something silly like this.

So many probability and it leaves no room for facts.

Then let me tell some fact here. I got Band 4 in my MUET Test session 1/2008 recently and out of the four papers, Writing is the lowest mark I got with Band 2. Other papers are just OK or excellence with Band 4, 5 and 6.

So people, please forgive my written English here! ;)

Mahmoud dan Tenaga

kenaikan harga minyak baru2 ni membuatkan kita semua terfikir betapa kadar kebergantungan sumber tenaga di seluruh dunia adalah kepada sumber petroleum. tenaga elektrik kat Malaysia ni pun bergantung banyak kepada sumber petroleum untuk menjana janakuasanya. effort untuk teruskan Empangan Bakun is a very smart one, walaupun ada isu-isu disebalik pembinaan empangan tu.

kebergantungan ni membuatkan aku takut if one day harga minyak ni naik tak habis2. ekonomi dunia pulak in the other hand, dijangka tidak akan merudum walau pun harga minyak mencecah USD200 setong, hanya inflasi je yang akan meruncing. i'm not that economic-geek yang boleh hurai correlation inflasi dengan ekonomi dunia, tapi aku dapat rasa those 2 things are alike 'siblings' to each other. yang pasti kesannya adalah kita as an end-user.

dengan kenaikan harga minyak di pam ni, it's good for me in such way i didn't drive macam orang gila. hanya 80 kmj, tak berburu2 & lebih tenang (or is it drive mcm org skema?). I in the other hand dah start balik Jengka by bus which i have to take from Plaza Pekeliling every time nak balik jumpa bini. and of course, tiket sekarang dah tak boleh beli on the spot, kena beli awal2. maybe orang dah beralih kepada public transport utk balik kampung.

tapi itu dah cerita lain. how people can change due to this issue interest me a lot.

D8 Summit kat KL ni pulak menyebabkan Presiden Iran, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad datang ke Malaysia. of course it makes me a bit eager to hear what will he deliver during the summit. malam semalam interview dengan Bernama & RTM interest me on what he said regarding energy. and of course dia akan bercakap tentang nuclear energy. it's really interesting and some how aku tak sabar nak tengok apa respon Malaysia yang pernah bercadang nak guna nuklear untuk sumber alternatif tenaga, walaupun ntah bila dapat tau confirmnya. pastinya 'pakej menarik' yang dikatakan akan ditawarkan Iran dalam Summit D8 ni akan menjadi perhatian aku minggu ni.

tengah googling pasal interview dengan Mahmoud Ahmadinejad, i'm so surprised i could found his blog! it wows me for a few second and i'm so excited to share it here. Presiden Mahmoud makes me feel that he is that somebody yang kita cari selama ni yang boleh dijadikan sebagai idola dalam dunia islam kini. i'm sure ramai yang dah dapat emel forward long time ago yang menyiarkan gambar2 Presiden Mahmoud yang boleh membuatkan kita sebak dan kagum dengan kerendahan hatinya, kredibilitinya dan ketegasan prinsipnya.

dengar cerita KPDNHEP dah ready nak angkat paper lain pasal harga minyak semasa ni. hopefully PM akan berpegang teguh pada janjinya sehingga tahun 2008 berakhir.

Stuff for babies

It's been almost a year since the last time I posted something here. One of my fren's blog, Ciki has started the spark in me how important it is to have something posted here. Well at least one or two stories to share with some other friends who cares to visit their other friend's blog.

To begin with, I'd like to share how I was a bit amused to start buying babies stuff. Spending only about RM44, it takes me about 1 hour to had it done. Looking at each and every stuff there, making a little research comparing one brand to another, thinking what stuff must I prioritized first and bla bla bla. If it is not because of my watch indicates the time is 8.05pm without me have not solat yet, I might ended being there for another hour. But sadly enough, I was doing it all alone, without my lovely wife not being there with me. Hopefully she could get her transfer order to Putrajaya asap (please!).

In short, I love to shop stuff for babies at that shop! It gave me some weird feeling as if that I'm about to take another step ahead that will bring me to another phase in life and I love that feeling. It makes me so much in seriousness (I was always not being serious, according to my wife). It was so exciting and it was full of heart pounding. Wow, I must be over describing it. Haha, anyway its good to shop there at Manjaku Shop. It's somewhere in Bangi. Somebody in my office also told me that she's been doing all her shopping for her babies ("shopping"?) at that Manjaku whatsoever.

Somebody might think the names I've prepared for our baby is a bit old, infamous and lame name, but for me it reflecting somebody who is so great in personality and well-known in the Islamic history. Well, what the heck!